desires & expectations

i went to church tonight by myself. the first time i have ever gone to church by myself, and not expecting to meet someone there. and this is what i learned.

desire: a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing something to happen.

i desire to move from where i am. i desire to succeed at my job. i desire to have a boyfriend. i desire to live by the beach. i desire to get my masters. i desire to…and the list goes on.

expectations: a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future.

desires should never be something that we start to expect. but unfortunately, i have expected them. but why? it might be because other people get things they want. or because i think i deserve it, its my turn. but as soon as i start to expect what i want, i am left disappointed.

i should never expect God or anyone, to give me something i want. i don’t deserve anything. but i do expect it. i have turned my desires into expectations and have been left with a feeling of disappointment. all because i expected something to happen. it was all about me. and what i wanted.

but what does God want?

he wants me to please him. then he will give me the desires, not the expectations.

“delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” psalm 37:4